Seeking Wisdom

Link to Daily Readings   I started having this thought earlier this year when I was far from seeking humility, but I still want to write it out to see if it still works within the context of humility. A topic that’s heard a lot of soft soap is how we are to be as Christians. It seems that often people talk as though we are to be poor, pitiful creatures who, though powerless, love others with all our heart. Though it may be true that we are undoubtedly poor and pitiful compared to God I see no commandment that demands our weakness, perhaps poverty, but not weakness. For after all it is impossible to be loving without being strong, to be morally upright without having discipline. These flow from God and are assisted by Him but we can’t wallow through life as though we are powerless. Consider the crucifixion. The night before in the garden Jesus asks his Father to take the cup away if it be His will, if it be His will . So it’s quite clear that in the moment, in his fully hum...

Link to Daily Readings I was thinking about my workout when I was about to brush my teeth just now, and I thought, when do I feel strong? I certainly never wake up feeling strong. I sometimes wake up feeling fresh, clearheaded, and sound of body, but not strong. I think strength is something you can only feel within yourself when it’s being tested, and I don’t think this is exclusive to the physical variety. It makes quite a bit of sense. How on earth could you get an idea of how much weight you could lift, except by lifting weights? You could eye yourself up in the mirror, flex and check to see how much muscle mass you have, but everyone’s neurological efficiency differs. There are stringy people who are strong, people who look like tubs of lard but are immensely strong, and bodybuilders who can’t bench press their own bodyweight. I think God must be planting these thoughts in my head sometimes, because they always come around to some spiritual interpretation quite quickly. Wha...

Link to Daily Readings Whenever I just wake up, I feel a very intense desire to go back to sleep. As though it were the ultimate in pleasure for me. It’s a very strange feeling because I have this subconscious reckoning that not only will it feel really good, it will be good for me, it is what I need that I’ve been searching for. The thought seems to flash through my mind that if I just went back to sleep for an hour and a half, all my problems will be solved, I’ll be completely blissful. I do like dreaming. I like dreaming quite a bit actually. So I must have some awareness while I’m dreaming, that I’m dreaming if I’m recognizing it as not being reality, then waking up and wanting to go back to unreality. But once I’m awake, the suggestion that I spend all my time sleeping, or indeed any more than that which is healthy, seems somewhat absurd. Why should I spend all my time sleeping when there is so much to be done, and seen, and experienced in the real world? But on that edge, ju...