2 – 8 – 17 Temptation, Rationalization, and the Convenience of Beliefs
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Whenever
I just wake up, I feel a very intense desire to go back to sleep. As though it
were the ultimate in pleasure for me. It’s a very strange feeling because I
have this subconscious reckoning that not only will it feel really good, it
will be good for me, it is what I need that I’ve been searching for. The
thought seems to flash through my mind that if I just went back to sleep for an
hour and a half, all my problems will be solved, I’ll be completely blissful.
I do
like dreaming. I like dreaming quite a bit actually. So I must have some
awareness while I’m dreaming, that I’m dreaming if I’m recognizing it as not
being reality, then waking up and wanting to go back to unreality. But once I’m
awake, the suggestion that I spend all my time sleeping, or indeed any more
than that which is healthy, seems somewhat absurd. Why should I spend all my
time sleeping when there is so much to be done, and seen, and experienced in
the real world? But on that edge, just near sleep on either side, it seems like
the answer to every question and problem.
I
think this has some parallel in my spiritual life. When I’m far off from a vice
and not currently tempted by it, I don’t really fear it very much as I can see
how little appeal it has. As I’m sitting in my Physics lecture at nine in the
morning the thought of infidelity or other sexual indiscretions seems
ridiculous, I don’t really want the rewards of that badly enough to do much of
anything about it, and in comparison with the costs (social, spiritual, and
health-wise) I really don’t have any desire to pursue it. But just on the edge
of these vices, when emotions are raised and we are in solitude (or worse, in
the company of those who hinder us in our morality) this vice will make an
irresistible argument. Only to call it an argument is quite inaccurate as it
does not appeal to the reason. Were my vices and virtues to battle on an even
plain, with only pure reason as the deciding factor my virtues should trounce
every vice nearly instantly. My vices attack when my willpower is asleep, at
the end of a long day, in an old friend after a lonely couple of weeks. But
here is the true genius, the vice disguises itself as another morality, rather
than a mere perversion of the true one. It will call out arguments for its own
rightfulness to an enfeebled and suggestible mind that is teetering on the
brink. But these are not arguments, they’re simply rationalizations made up for
the feelings the vice has given us, because we want to feel justified in our
actions.
Thereby
pride gives a vice incredibly more power. A vice overcoming a humble man is a
moment of weakness, when his will and virtue were defeated by a mere feeling.
He recognizes this and moves to try to gain greater control over his actions
when aroused (I mean in the general sense) and the degrees to which he allows
emotions to build.
A
prideful man, however, seeks to be justified. If he’s done it, there must be
some good reason for him to have done it. Somehow, when this reasoning
conflicts between two opposite choices, the worse one is always chosen as the
morality of choice. So a man who has had a woman when he ought not have will
dream up fanciful arguments of the natural state of competitive reproduction,
concede he is only a man whose biological goal is to create many progeny.
During these internal processes he does not recall all the times he’s been
chaste, what his thinking was at that time. Because being chaste is still
acceptable if being unchaste is acceptable. He’s effectively just lowered the
standards for his own behavior. Not lowered them because he recognizes he is a
poor and ineffectual creature (this is the real reason), but ostensibly because
the things he believed back when he was young and foolish can’t really have
been true because the current self is so much wiser and stronger than the old
and has acted against these ideas.
Thereby
pride multiplies a vice’s impact. In a humble man, it has only as much power as
the feeling it generates. It’s recognized afterwards as a fault, a misstep, and
the man can quite easily repent and try not to do it again. Vice done in pride
needs to be justified, and therefore has the enormous power of changing our beliefs to fit our life,
rather than the other way around.
How
ridiculous of a concept. If we applied it to anything other than spiritual and
moral matters people should think we were mad. In my truth the sun is an
enormous lamp about a mile up that always happens to be where I am, other
people have theirs too. The moon is a dinner plate-like object that is a
similar distance above the earth. Stars are mere specks of light etc, etc. Here
we contest these claims and find them ridiculous because we know of some
objective truth that shows them to be ridiculous.
So
it’s quite easy to see that if we agree on a moral objective truth, even if no one knows exactly what it is,
it probably won’t be exactly as it appears to us naturally.
Another
reason I find changing beliefs to accommodate lifestyles untenable is its quite
simple failure in logic. One is saying that some outside thing is defined by
their own personal action. Promiscuity is no sin because I am promiscuous is no
different than saying that yogurt is inherently the best food because it’s my
favorite, and anyone that disagrees is wrong or spiteful.
Now
were they presented as such these arguments would be easily flouted, and as
such no one holds them in quite this way. They will be wrapped in the nicest
looking packages, like utilitarianism. Its self-reported primary end is the
happiness of people but there’s two huge holes. It says nothing about equality
or time frame. I should actually wager that compared to all conceptions of the
universe Christianity is by far the most utilitarian in the long term as it
promises us eternal and infinite happiness, infinity times infinity. Though in
the short term I must admit it is the harder life, though it may still be more
fun than a life of sin.
Now
the individual arguments people present are not really the main point. I should
have to write all morning if I meant to discredit each philosophy that is a
mere justification of the inventor’s actions. But here is exactly where I’m
going. The convenience of a belief surely says something about the virtue in
believing it. If I see Christ descending during the Second Coming then repent and
devote my life wholly to God I am no great saint. Christ even said it, “Blessed
are those who have not seen, but still believe.” I don’t think he necessarily
meant “and therefore damn those who have to see to believe” but he certainly
didn’t include them in that particular group of blessing.
What
I’m saying here is that when a man claims his conception of morality is true,
he must be claiming it is objectively true, it really makes no sense any other
way, we don’t generally talk about morality in conditionals and logistics. So
the test of whether his belief in it is valid, not whether the moral system itself is valid, is if he treats it
like objective truth.
If
we are given a concept in math we may quite enjoy doing it, but we still mess
it up quite frequently at the beginning, and those errors never stay far away
for someone who isn’t careful about sign errors and the like. Do I see this in
my friends who believe they should follow their natural inclinations? No, not
at all. If the right is to follow your inclinations then I don’t see how one
could err, as anything you do you’ve decided to do. It’s quite an idiotically
circular argument once one tries to examine it.
What
if we don’t like the new math concept. Well the pupil who firmly believes that
there is an objective mathematical truth and that this truth is relevant to him
(a mathematical truth may not be relevant to everyone always, but a moral truth
should be) will struggle and complain his way through it. He may quit it for a
while to come back to later, hoping to have a fresh mind or perhaps some new
skill or perspective, but no matter how much he struggles he won’t write it off
as worthless. Perhaps he should say it is too difficult to be worthwhile for
him, but that is a completely different statement. When a pseudo-morality
proposes something that individual doesn’t like, he doesn’t really have a
reason to consider it. The only morality he believes to be true is his own, the
possession bit is important there. What about if a new, uncomfortable precept
comes from within his own ranks? Well he can take exception, say that these
folks may make some mistakes in their thinking but they’re still quite more
correct than everybody else and therefore I’ll keep my lot in with them. One
hears this countless times in regard to political parties. Or he says “damn the
whole thing” and leaves.
Note
here that I’m not claiming that those of an untrue belief system can never be
instructed, that has been proven horrifically false, I’m merely highlighting
the different ways people treat belief systems they regard as good or
convenient, and those they regard as true. One could never leave or take
exception to mathematics the way one could to a political party.
Perhaps
the clearest way to see convenience is temporally. When did James start
believing it was okay to smoke cigarettes, or rob people, or be selfish, or
what have you. If this belief were inconvenient it was long before he did any
of these things or felt a real desire to. The belief that entered his mind was
incongruent with his current life and would require difficult change. If he,
months after developing the belief that he must be a criminal, starts getting
criminal urges, then later starts committing petty acts of thievery I should
say that belief was two things. First it was inconvenient to the man it came
to, secondly it was transformative. Most stories of faith one hears are very
similar endeavors, once one replaces the criminality with piety and good
judgment.
Consider
however, that James started stealing bread from the local bakery because his
little siblings were in want. His motive is quite pure, if his methods aren’t
quite morally upright. Then Jenny wants a toy so he gets her that, soon it’s
new clothes. His little sister is no wretch for wanting toys and nice clothes,
and he is no demon for seeking to satisfy her desires, he is reprehensible for
his actions, but his motives are pure. He probably recognizes this exact truth
and feels the conflict within himself, he’d rather be honest, but he couldn’t get
along that way he reasons. So he can go on and prove to himself that his
current actions are correct. Five years later James will likely still be
stealing, even if his sister is now old enough to take care of herself. Why?
Well he decided while he was stealing out of necessity that it was an
acceptable evil in the circumstance. And as far as I know people they are
terrible judges of what is necessity, myself included. So it will be quite easy
for him to see his current situation as another extenuating circumstance.
Alternatively, he may have been thieving so long that it is a part of his
character, has informed his personality. If he wishes to justify himself then
he’s either got to lop off a good portion of what it means to be himself, or
justify thievery. He may then believe that thievery is justifiable.
This
is a convenient belief to have. At no point did it demand change from James, it
in fact insulated him from a very difficult change indeed. It came long after
feelings and actions, infiltrating and integrating into his personality through
his habits.
A
similar process could be seen where the belief starts between feelings and
actions, but the concept is extremely similar. I feel this way, feeling this
way is part of me, therefore feeling this way is acceptable. This belief allows
me to do whatever the thing is that I wanted to do that my old morality held me
from. Thus the lustful man concludes that chastity is no virtue before, not
after, he visits a brothel, so as to have a clear conscience.
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