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What am I looking for, what are we looking for?
Why are we pursuing this whole thing, what’s the question in
our lives that needs answering, why do we have this perception that this God
thing might be a unique part of our lives? And indeed, maybe not even part of
our lives, but the essential part, the core?
The only practical answer that came to mind for me was that
I desire some form of durable happiness. I want something that will let me feel
good even on days the circumstances dictate that I should feel otherwise.
I guess that’s not really happiness though. I’ve come to
form my own definitions of joy and happiness that are helpful in my thinking.
This durable happiness is what I would consider joy. It’s
not terribly dependent on outward conditions, it’s more of a state of mind. It
is something that is accepting, unreserving, and powerful, powerful enough to
conquer the most inhospitable environments we may encounter ourselves in.
That would leave happiness as the more transient feeling,
something that is, indeed, merely a feeling. Getting what you want generates
happiness. Treats, the indulging of temptations, and winning all generate
happiness. Happiness occurs when the external world is aligned to our
perception of what it should be. Well at least that’s the more noble way of
saying it. Happiness occurs when the external world satisfies our desires.
This quality immediately shows how fragile happiness is. If
we are pursuing happiness rather than joy we’d need to control the entirety of
the world to be happy.
Joy is not dependent in this way. Joy does not depend on the
conditions we face. When does joy occur?
That is an all-together harder question to answer than the
occurrence of happiness as our own experiences of joy are far more fleeting and
less frequent than our experiences of happiness. At least if we are not
terribly spiritually developed and have a comfortable standard of living.
To find joy we must find something that satisfies us in a
way that is independent of our physical situation. So then the thing we are
satisfying must not be a physical desire. This immediately shows how different
joy must be from happiness as much of our happiness is derived from the satisfaction
of physical desires.
Not that much of our happiness is derived from the physical
sensations we experience. I think that we actually extract considerably less
pleasure out of our eating and resting and walking than God intended. What I
mean is that the roots of this happiness are physically manifest. It may be our
sense of importance being fed by a recent promotion or recognition. Or our
pride by an affirmation. In any case, there’s a real, traceable event within
our life that an outside observer could see.
So, developing the definitions I’ve proposed, I’m not sure
that we could derive happiness from prayer. Surely it is one of the more
consistent sources of joy in our lives, and we may experience happiness through
the people we pray with or our method of prayer, but I think the actual
conversation with God must be a dealing in joy.
Because, so far as I can tell, God does not bother giving us
what is weak, what fades, what does not truly satisfy.
Joy is that pleasure that is nearly sweeter in the recollection
than in the present. It is something we can enjoy and then look back upon
fondly, being glad of the fact that we enjoyed that thing.
I think many of the things that bring me mere happiness seem
silly or worse in retrospect. I may see that things like seeing a film were
necessary for my psyche, to unwind. But it’s not something I can really hang my
hat on. Whereas when I look back on a musical performance, especially a
ministerial one, I can feel good about having done it. In fact I might even
decide that I would have done it had it not been pleasurable in the moment.
Which is an interesting distinction. There are certain
things that both make us feel good in the moment (happiness or joy) that we can
also look back upon favorably, a trait of joy. Some things we are so glad we
did, we may have done them without the initial pleasure because they did
something beneficial inside of us, changed us for the better.
Chase joy, not happiness.
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